So the other day I did a post about blowing my top.
I don't normally post personal stuff, but this one is eating me. SO I am going to post the argument.
Most of you know I am five months pregnant and that this has been a very difficult pregnancy. What you don't know, is that Hubby and I have one vehicle for the family. Hubby drives a work van that is only allowed for work, and we own a 1955 ford100. The Ford sits on the side of my drive, rusting, it is only a two seater, is leaking oil, none of the gages work and the trans is slipping.
With another baby on the way, we really need another family car, but can't afford a monthly payment. If we bought one, it would have to be cash. Husband refuses to sell the junk Ford that serves no purpose in order to help me out. What is the big deal you might ask. Well I tote our two year old everywhere. To and from everyday without the help of my husband. He sometimes gets off work early and it would be so nice if he could pick our son up from daycare early. Not only would it be easier on me, but our son would love the extra time home with daddy.
We recently had a car issue, that I am still dealing with. Since it is our only car, I had to get a rental, tote our son, his car seat, stroller in between 3 cars getting the rental and picking our car up when it was ready. Doing it by myself and pregnant with a 2 yr old, was no piece of cake. Today I am without a car, hoping that it is ready before my work day is over b/c I have to get our son from daycare by 5pm. Hubby calls today to ask if I want to go to lunch b/c he got home at 11 today. 'I HAVE NO CAR'. Everytime something like that comes up I think to myself how much easier life would be with another car. I think of all I am willing to sacrafice for my family and how my husband can't sacrafice this one thing. But I don't want to be the bitch wife that says "DO IT NOW", I want him to do it for his family. So I get more upset, and more depressed and it just keeps going and going..
His brilliant response to me over the weekend....
"Didn't you think about that before you wanted another baby?"
You don't even want to know the evil thoughts that swarmed my head at that moment.
Update: Full to the fire
Well today, I had a major scare. I was having cramps early in the day...and slowly they became harder and I became scared and called to see the doctor. Well, my car was in the shop and I had no way to get there. So I had to call my husband and wait 15 mintues for him to come and pick me up in his work van. The ride to the doctor was very uncomfortable. And the more and more I thought about it, the more I became upset and cried even more. Turns out I pulled the ligament on the left side of my uterus and it will take time to heal. SO I have to take it easy, no lifting or sudden movements...I gues the doctor forgot I had a toddler. Not so easy. Did husband get it...of course not.
After the doctor, I had to go pick the car up. If we had another vehicle, hubby could of picked my son and I up and I wouldn't of had to worry about anything. So is my life.